happiness

Slow transitions

It’s Sunday night here on the #eastcoast & as I am sitting in my living room watching Amazon Prime I am preparing for the week ahead. It’s Thanksgiving week and I have already begun this week steps behind where I had planned to be.

Time goes by in the blink of an eye, I should know that the longer I take to get going the more work it is for me. But…. I guess you could say that I am a glutton for punishment. You see, this is the first Thanksgiving that Raul & I will spend away from home. We are officially on our own our own here in Connecticut. I’m behind on my Thanksgiving dinner shopping. I have to say it, I am just not feeling it. It seems that I am not feeling anything these days. It is hard for me to find motivation. I am not working a 9-5 right now, however, I am freelancing. For so long I have been on this schedule & all of a sudden I am thrown into this new life. I am away from Texas (my home for 20+ yrs) for the first time in my life, it is so cold here (I miss the Texas sun), & I do not know a soul out here.

Now, I agree. #firstworldproblems. I get it. I feel like it has just taken me some time getting used to this life as a “military wife”. I follow this hashtag on @instagram, its #navywife. Yes, I am admitting it. But why? Why am I? Because I’m curious. What are these spouses posting? What are their lives like? Yes, I’m comparing. A lot of them make their lives look so glamorous. They even claim to be “travel bloggers”, I can’t help but snicker. You’re “traveling” is really called PCS’ing…. for those of you unfamiliar- PCS means Permanent Change of Station. Pretty much these “travel bloggers” aren’t really traveling- they’re moving to a new station. Yes, I’m still intrigued. Many of them have so many instagram followers. Are they actually making money with these false accusations? Disclaimer: I realize there are probably some real “travel bloggers” out there that are military spouses. Calm down, please. I have so many questions. I need to know.

Most new military wives out there are young. They aren’t really established in life. I, on the other hand, find myself in a unique situation. I am in my mid 30’s. I have a home (that I miss & love) in Texas, & a great career. Now, I find myself starting over in a new place. I feel like this transition into my new life is taking longer than I expected, & admittingly, I am a little frustrated. I have been trying to meet new people that are in a similar situation to the one I am in but have had no luck. The only thing I can do is continue to focus on my career and networking from there.

Anyway, what I’m trying to say is. I miss Texas, HEB, & Whataburger. HELP.

Obligatory introduction.

Hello, lovers!

Since I can remember I have always owned a camera. I love having a camera at all times. I took pictures of everything and I loved, even more, picking up my 4x6 prints from the drug store. I had a problem! My parents complained that my hobby was getting expensive. I would save up my rolls of film and get them all developed at once. I made albums and scrap books of everything. I even wanted to have my very own dark room someday (I still do). So much so that when I went away to school I ended up having a career as an X-Ray tech for nearly a decade. Hey, I was in the medical field and I still was able to take pictures. I loved it! Then, years later, I purchased my first digital camera. It was a small 6 megapixel Canon Powershot. It was small and compact, it cost me about $500. I had no regrets. I was working my "big girl" job and it was one of the first purchases I made. I took pictures of everything. I was so artsy with every shot I took. I loved taking pictures. I was so infatuated with the aesthetics & every little detail that went into taking a photograph.

Fast forward to last year when I purchased yet another camera, this time a mirrorless Sony camera, and told myself that I would not make another big camera purchase until my business allowed me to.  I, then, made it a point to perfect my craft. I went on to attend Austin School of Photography to get a better grip. I knew the little details, but I wanted to perfect them. I wanted to become a photographer that shunned at the thought of "all AUTO everything". YOU GUYS- I'm pretentious. I'm pretentious as all hell. I'll give you the stink eye.. .. PSH!* Auto? What a fraud. Hahahha, I'm totally kidding. Who cares, a beautiful picture is a beautiful picture. I just wanted to cut down on the time of taking multiple photographs. I wanted to be able to meet with a client, take a few shots, and walk about confident in everything photograph I took.

This website is to serve as my personal documentation of the progress of my work & to share my life as a documentarian with you. So, welcome! *hugs*
 

You are beautiful & smart.