Since I last posted, my husband and I have been preparing for a new change in our lives. He and I have bee preparing him for the military. The Navy, to be precise. My husband is a man that has never pictured himself in a 9-5 desk job. He is a man that wants to help people. He went to school to become a firefighter and decided that his next goal in life is to serve the country that he loves. The United States of America. He is a patriotic man. I, myself, am not one to dabble into politics. My husband? He cares too much to remain silent.
I am a daydreamer, my husband is not. We balance one another. Today has been the result of planning for our future. Today, my husband goes to MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station). At MEPS he will go through a physical as well as take the ASVAB (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) exam. These two are vital to our future. If, and when, all goes well...he will be able to choose a job that will be his starting career in the military.
Does it scare me? Hell yes it does...but, my husband is a selfless man. And I damn well will support him every step of the way. On 11/11/17, it was Veteran's Day. I grew up a military brat. I am proud to call my father my hero. My father, is also, a selfless man that devoted a huge part of his life to the military. My father is proud to say that he served his country. When I was a child my mother kept the house together. I never realized how hard it was for her when my father was away because she held it together that much.
Now, as my husband is taking the final steps towards the beginning of our future, I often think about how hard it was for my mother and how strong she needed to be for us. My husband and I both share a crazy work schedule & are off on the same days during the week. We often only have each other to be with as a lot of our friends work during the week. I am getting anxious just thinking about him being away. We have no children at this time, we have puppy children. While he is away I feel like I will be starting over, meaning ... I'll need to find a life that does not involve him as he is making this life for our family. People ask me all the time, "How do you feel?". Truthfully? I don't know how I feel yet. I have feelings of happiness for him, sadness for us, and anxiousness for myself. I am full of roller coaster type emotions. Overall, I am excited to do life with him by my side.
"You are beautiful, and smart."